2009.

so i've never done this before, but something told me that i should. i think it's time that i make a list of goals, wishes, ideas, etc. for the year ahead. some things i'd like to get done or what i expect out of myself. i'll be adding to this often. so here we go: (in no particular order.)

bring it on 2009!

.. finish a breast cancer walk, preferably the susan g. komen 3 day walk in chicago in august.
.. make a decision on my career and find that job or go back to school to finish up.
.. get back into shape.
.. have fun planning our wedding (one year to go!!)
.. be better at keeping in touch with people.
.. save money.
.. inspire people.

rambles.

i don't know why but people's words and actions really effect me. and i mean REALLY effect me. so much that i sometimes can't sleep at night. the way people look at me, the way they say things - or not say things. i wish it wouldn't. i can sometimes feel my blood boil, or it physically feels like my heart is breaking. it puts me in such a horrible slump i feel like i'm never going to get out of it.

and i'm there right now.

i feel like some people just don't care about ANYone. or no one else really LISTENS to other people. and it truly breaks my heart. i wish people would be more compassionate and just plain polite. i guess i shouldn't wait around though. i thought i was making good friends here, but they've all just turned there backs, and why? i'll never know.

ugh.