grew some balls.

so i finally "grew some balls" and confronted the person that was hurting me. (refer to last post) they said sorry, i said sorry. but after i got off the phone, something didn't feel right. no genuine feelings where passed between us. i could just tell. we talked because we thought we HAD to talk. now, i know this person and i have only been friends through college. so it hasn't been that long at all. but i've always believed in the saying, "quality over quantity." and i always thought we spent some quality time together. shared some laughs, drank some wine, cried over boys. we were there for eachother. but i've closed that chapter in my life.

i'm glad i picked up that phone and confronted someone today. it's taught me that nothing beats the friends you can grow up seperately, but never grow apart from. i cherish everyone of of them.

i thank all of those friends. i hope you know who you are.

hurt.

my feelings are getting hurt and i don't like it. i know that i was never that good at keeping in touch with people. i'll be the first to admit that. but when i DO make the efforts with someone i would consider one of my closest friends, why don't they want to make that effort, too? i use multiple means of communication and no response from ANY of them. is it too late? are my efforts worthless because the other person has given up? it's pretty sad if that's true. like i said, i considered them one of the closest people to me. i thought no matter what, we could go on and do our own thing for a while, but still start up when we left off.

all i'm asking for is a response. life isn't THAT busy. you respond to everyone else.